I quit.
I don't know why.
I quit.
I stopped trying
To reach into your little world
And pull you out again.

I quit
Trying to talk to you
When you're standing on your head
Your feet are in the air
And you say you care,
But you only see the pavement.

I quit on you
I quit on me
I quit on us
And i'm lost

I stopped
Wanting to fix everything.
I stopped.
I thought I needed air
But I just stopped breathing
My heart stopped beating

I stopped
I thought I was wrong
I stopped living and moving;
I can't find my own mind.
I thought too much
And now I don't know what to think.

I quit on you
I quit on me
I quit everything
And now i'm lost
I quit the best for something more
But I still can't find it

I still stumble
I still fall
I still don't know where I am
But if I stop quitting

Maybe if I stopped quitting

I could
Find Him as He finds me
I could
Be where I'm supposed to be
I could move knowing there's someone there
I could go on

I'll be there for you
I'll let go of me
I'll let Him have us
I won't quit another day
I won't stop living

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Oh yes, and something actually from me, haha!
So, I went to the vending machine the other day, and i decided Minute Maid lemonade sounded yummy. So I put in my dollar and pushed the button, and out came my lemonade.
Plus one.
But I didn't even think about it. The machines get jammed all the time, and it's not uncommon to get two pops or something. So, I left it there, maybe for someone else to take.
That event didn't cross my mind again until Wednesday at r180. I was singing, listening to Rob talk, and then we prayed, and everything as usual. But at some point, that little thing began itching my brain, and continued until the close. Rob was talking about simple ways to bless people, chances to talk to them. You never know if what you get will bless someone else, even if you can't see it, ever. Dawn pointed that out too. And i was thinking about that event, and about my actions, and it finally dawned on me...
I had given up my blessing.
I had left it there for someone else, tried to leave it for someone it wasn't intended for.
I have done this many times, I saw, with things more important than Minute Maid. And I was, and am really, rather depressed about it. But regret isn't a good friend to have, so I have decided not to let it bother me, and instead recognize when I am blessed.

I hope this blesses someone out there.

Toodles!

I know how you feel. The best thing you can do know, is try to realize the blessing you get from now on. I've just rwalized that i've become too encompassed in MySpace. I actually checked my bravejournal yesterday and saw that i hadn't been on in almost 2 months. 2 months! I just totally left all my friends on here for there, which is wrong. Friends are another blessing, one that i dont thank God enough for. Well, i must run. Like i said.. on MySpace... i love your poem. very emotion filled. i'll ttyl! Luvies! <3

Oh, that;s so sweet!!!!:)

Your story reminds me of another story about a flood. Once there was a flood. This man was trapped in his home as the water was getting high and he couldn't drive his little car to safety. A big SUV came by and offered him a ride while they could still make it. The man said "No, God will save me." and he waited. The water kept rising and the man went to the second floor of his home. A couple in a boat came along and offered him a ride. The man said "no, God will save me." and he waited. The water rose higher yet and the man had to retreat to his roof. A helicopter flying over spotted him and threw down a rope. The man ignored it and shouted to the pilot "God will save me!" and he waited. Soon the water covered the house and the man was lost. When the man got to heaven he asked God "Why didn't you save me?" and God replied "I tried three times!I sent you a truck, a boat AND a helicopter- what did you want?"
Sometimes it's just hard to recognize a blessing, I think maybe because we don't always know what we are truly looking for.

Hmmmm...very cool post. :) I'll remember that. I can recall a couple of times I gave up my blessing 2!! Yeah. Well, T2YL! ;) It wuz good 2 C U post!!

I kind of understand what you mean but at the same time I think that it isn't always bad to give your blessings to others, in fact sharing your blessings can sometimes fullfill the blessing, I don't know if that makes since to you. its like when somthing really good happens to you your joy in that thing or event is not full untill you share it with someone else, like for instance mhen my children were born I was such a proud papa but that joy was complete when I was able to share the news of my kids birth with others, do you see what I mean. We should always thank God for all of our blessings but alot of those blessings are meant to be shared with others. done of our greatest blessings is our salvation not only should we share that with others by telling them about and telling them how they can get in on it but we were camanded to do so, anyway I'm going on and on take care and God bless I like your page by the way you should check out my website www.extremeevangelism.com and shoot me a e-mail and let me know what you think of it. Ty

That is such a wonderful poem!!!!!!!! I love it!!!!!!!!!!

What a lovely poem!